My Life Lessons

-Mistakes- I made early on were ones that have, up until very recently, haunted me day and night. I met a girl in high school and at the time I didn’t want a relationship; I just wanted a no strings attached kind of thing. I got my wish and shortly after meeting her and fooling around it just kind of dissipated and that was that.

-4- Years later she came back into my life, but this time under different circumstances. I was coaching wrestling at the time and I happened to run into her after one of my practices. At the time I was quite speechless and didn’t really know what to say to her; however, we ended up going on a date that same week and we really hit it off. Fast forward a few months and we were dating and things were going surprisingly well. We had both matured in the 4 years we had been apart and this time I wanted a relationship.

-As- we dated for a longer period of time and learned more and more about each other our relationship and our feelings for one another grew. She ended up moving in with me and my family and that’s when things started to change, for both better and worse.

-Almost- one year after starting up a relationship with this woman it was all over. The next 8 months I spent trying to get her back with all the effort I could muster but it would never again be what it was. In the end it was a futile endeavor and wouldn’t work out.

-I- learned much about myself and I learned even more about life and the many lessons people will teach you if you let them. It took me breaking down crying every night to realize that I had let her be in charge of my emotions. I learned that I gave my happiness away to someone else. I let her control my feelings and I wasn’t sure I would be able to figure out how to live without her. I did though. It was a very long road to “recovery,” but I took back my emotions one day at a time. I learned how to hide my feelings; I learned how to fake a smile and not allow my emotions to control me. 2 years later I was finally able to talk to her on the phone without getting all worked up afterword. What we had was special – it was the closest thing to a soul-mate I may ever find; but it was not the right time in life, and that’s okay. She was one of the biggest lessons in my life.

-It- was because of her I lost faith in love and ultimately it was she who showed me how to love again. Life is tough and it will destroy you if you let it. It is no easy task to fake a smile; but, as my mama told me during all those dark nights, fake it till you make it and in the end you will wonder how you were so weak. Feeling and emotions take time and years to master as does interpreting life’s many lessons. The more you practice them, the more you fall down, the easier it is to pick yourself back up.


-Although- it didn’t work out between me and her, I wouldn’t change it for the world. If I could go back and redo it, I wouldn’t change a thing. She taught me the true meaning of love and in the same respect she taught me the true meaning of heartbreak. She was a key part of my life and I wouldn’t be where I am today without her.

-Remember- that every night it gets dark, but every morning the sun rises again just as bright if not brighter than the day before. When all seems lost believe in yourself and you will get through the dark times to see the daylight once more.


-If all seems lost, find the lesson in the darkness and learn from it-



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